you'll find this post a bit in the middle. because there really was no starting point. was it when we fell in love? when i dreamed as a child of having a family? was it when we had our first miscarriage? the month that i lost track counting how many months we've been trying? i'm hoping this is the middle, because that means there will be an end. a happy ending, i hope. i expected our first apt with at the fertility clinic to be inconclusive. for them to give me a few pills and say, just try again. just wait a bit longer. you're still young. everything is normal, sometimes it just takes longer. reduce stress. reduce caffeine. drink less. do yoga. eat seeds. be happy. come back in 6 months. instead: we need to go straight to IVF. you'll need to start taking these pills. he'll need to start taking these pills. you could be pregnant in two months. you need to take a two hour session with the nurse. you need to sign these consent forms. you need to decide w...